body lying soundlessly asleep time ticks forwards I started from the pain Halloween of 2012 no going backward I started from the pain kiss for every girl waking up half naked I started from the pain shared cigarette locked up in a bathroom I started from the pain frat boys on coke& borrowed toothbrushes I started from the pain americanized names one tequila, two tequila, three tequila… you know I started from the pain walk in clogs assisted keg-stands I started from the pain nacho breath& someone’s t-shirt I started from the pain half-formed cuss words borrowed intermissions I started from the pain rubbing alcohol purple bruised shins I started from the pain convex stomachs breathing out I started from the pain a body is just a body all roads are paved with good intentions